In my dreams

OldRuin“What would be your dream life, BabyB?” It was OldRuin again, having had time to mull over what I’d said to him yesterday.
“I’ve no idea,” I replied. “But I guess it’d have to involve having financial security for my mother. Maybe pay off her debts, get her a bigger house.”
“And what would you be doing?”
“I don’t know. I never imagined I’d be a barrister but I kind of like it now I’m here. Sounds sad but the security thing’s the only bit I’d change.”
“Will you grant me a wish, BabyB?”
“Of course, OldRuin. What?”
“That you try to stop making plans and start dreaming again. Dream like you were a child again.” He hesitated before continuing, “Boundless.”

I’ve no doubt that I looked more than a little perplexed and he fell back into a voice I’ve heard him use before, only just above a whisper. “It’s sorrow and longing which carve out the depths of your soul, BabyB.” Again he looked at me, this time a little wistfully before adding, “But it’s your dreams which give it life.”

March 15, 2016 · Tim Kevan · 3 Comments
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  1. Abigail - November 27, 2008

    On the other hand…
    I was reading recently that our society peddles the lie that we can attain fulfilment through relationships and career, whereas normally our relationships and career are only just bearable. Dreaming like that forms a major part of the “mid-life crisis”.
    As for me, I have fulfilled a dream which I never thought I would, because I decided it was the most important thing in my life and I made it my only priority.

  2. Anonymous Barrister - November 27, 2008

    Okay Abigail – I’ll bite – what is/was your dream?

  3. Matthew - November 28, 2008

    My dream is success at the Bar though, in the middle of my GDL, the financial hurdles present me with sorrow and longing of a different sort. Ahh well, I suppose it’s all “soul-carving” experience. I wish I had Old Ruin to help me though, he really is a wise fellow!